Agarophobia
November 17, 2009
parade
This morning I have to leave the house. I manage rental properties and one of them has a flooded basement and a leaky roof. I was supposed to be there Saturday, but I am afraid. Last night I went in to full panic attack knowing that I have to leave the house this morning, and like always went to bed so late because I am afraid to go to sleep. I did take my meds Welbutrin and Klonopin. I slept well, but I am still afraid. I am not having suicidal thoughts, but I don’t want to leave the house. I could probably come up with a new excuse for not going to take care of the rental, but I also have to go to court. I recently got a ticket for an expired inspection. I feel like crying, but of course I can’t. My daughter woke up throwing up this morning, so she stayed home from school. I hope this week doesn’t suck.
I feel better after I write this post getting all my sad and evil thoughts out, but yesterday I felt that the bad feeling stayed with me all day. I will make a doctor’s appointment and get new meds as I think what I have is expired. I hope my son has a good day.
